The Doctor is back, telling me again that Oscar has Down syndrome - why does she have to keep saying it? She holds Oscar and he roars back at her. That's my boy. My room is like a train station. So many people, so many tests. I have panic attacks - can't breathe, feel like… Continue reading Man of Sorrows
The Shattered Heart
The shattering of a heart when being broken is the loudest quiet ever.Carroll Bryant I broke a glass the other night. With a crash it completely shattered on my bench top, into what I felt was a million pieces. Beyond repair. The mess cleaned up and the broken pieces thrown away. Sometimes, doesn't our heart… Continue reading The Shattered Heart
Eyes on you
It had been one of "those" mornings. One child frantically finishing a forgotten assignment and needing help to do so, a work crisis unfolding in New York meaning a rapidly shrinking window of time to resolve. Not to mention Oscar in tears in the car after two turnarounds to home to retrieve kindy bag left… Continue reading Eyes on you
Let your heart be light
It might be a line out of a Christmas carol, but in these weird times we find ourselves in, it's good advice. To let our heart be light means making a choice. 2020 has had a lot of hardship, sacrifice and challenges. Things that certainly add weight to our hearts. The worries of COVID-19, of… Continue reading Let your heart be light
He is for you
The New Zealand version of the Blessing has just been released. It is beautiful, powerful and anointed. As I listened to the wonderful blessing and promises of God for us, I was caught by one particular line - "God is for you". In the highs, in the lows of life, in the difficult and in… Continue reading He is for you
Sabbath
Today's Sabbath looked a lot different to normal. There was no travelling to a specific church building. No gathering around the Word and Communion of a community of believers. No corporate worship. But Sabbath there was. Worship there was. Today it was found in the listening to the Tui's singing. It was found standing under… Continue reading Sabbath
Shifting
And we're back in Lockdown. Abruptly. Without warning. Covid Alerts going on phones, live updates, supermarket queues. Plans, appointments are derailed, again. The Dining room table becomes an office desk. And once again the life we rely on changes. In amongst this I have enrolment forms for the 2021 school year to complete, zoom speech… Continue reading Shifting
Caught
Sometimes when Oscar and I go down stairs I find him launching himself into my arms. Without saying anything, he will just jump towards me. It's a big responsibility. Without any fear on his behalf, Oscar believes I will catch him. He believes because I always have. When Peter walked on water his his faith… Continue reading Caught
Surely
Surely :- firmly, confidently, securely, absolutely. Surely - a word of such hope, of such reassurance. It is used to exclude all doubt, to make a statement beyond question. And especially true when it is a promise from God. An emphasis from God to pay attention to the promise that follows. Surely goodness and mercy shall… Continue reading Surely
Seed
In life I think we can sometimes rationalise why we don't need to take action. Logical and sensible reasons for inaction. Going through the McDonald's drive-through today provided me with one of those moments. A man was standing at the end of the drive thru with a sign begging for change for food. Someone, to… Continue reading Seed
