It’s an odd place to start writing about this journey. I’m not at the start of it, nor am I at its end – although I’m expecting it to end well shortly. But here in the middle is where I am. And in this part of the journey while there is still an unknown I want to remember this peace of God that is so strongly present.
It was an innocuous start, the simple mammogram. Squeezing the appointment in between work meetings and picking up my son from kindy it was simply ticking something off my list of things to do. Two days later though came the call back for an ultrasound. Not unusual either, but disconcerting nonetheless. A request to see a specialist followed. And then the referral for a biospy. Doctors reassure, but you’re well aware you’ve just fallen into a small minority and head down a path which can have serious results.
Today, a month after the mammogram the biospy is done and dusted. I celebrated with a coffee enroute home. Now it’s a wait for the results. I’m expecting good news.
Through each step of this very unwanted process, I have felt incredibly at peace. A peace that can only be attributed to Jesus – the Prince of Peace. Continually I have been reminded of His presence and His love for me. God has demonstrated that He is in control through Scripture and worship, to quotes that have come across my instagram feed, to friends and family that have reached out with love and prayers. Just yesterday a dear friend turned up at church with a Scripture the Lord gave her for me and a gardenia flower – not knowing that today I would be having a biopsy. I went to sleep that night with the fragrance of the gardenia reminding me that God is with me.
“The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases; His mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning, great is your faithfulness.” Lamentations 3:22-23
I’m expecting this journey to end well. Just a little hiccup in my life and this chapter will finish as quickly as it began. But in this chapter, I was not alone. God was with me.
“She is not threatened by the battle that lies ahead, for she knows there will be victory in whatever the Lord has planned.” (Morgan Harper Nichols)
“Take courage my heart, stay steadfast my soul, He’s in the waiting” (Kristine Dimarco)
‘My road may run through a glen of gloom but I fear no harm for you are beside me, your club, your staff they give me courage” (Psalm 23:4)