It was time for our ultrasound of our baby at 20 weeks. I remember our excitement about being able to see this baby. Even more excited as advancements in technology from when we were last expecting meant that we would be able to see the baby in 3d. No longer just the grainy black and white pictures, but a clear photo.
I lay in that darkened room, staring at the monitor catching glimpses of the baby as the scan took place. And then, across the screen, came his face. His gorgeous, chubby cheeked face at rest.
And in that moment before I had even held this baby in my arms I had fallen in love. Fallen in love with that little, adorable face.
It’s the same with God. Before we had uttered our first cry on this planet. Before we had taken our first breath, before we could declare our love to Him, God already knew us and already loved us. Unconditionally loved us! Nothing we do can ever take away the unconditional love that God has for us. Nothing will ever separate us from Him or from His grace. Nothing ever disqualifies us from the good future and plans that He has for us.
“You formed my innermost being, shaping my delicate inside and my intricate outside, and wove them all together in my mother’s womb. I thank you, God, for making me so mysteriously complex! Everything you do is marvellously breathtaking. It simply amazes me to think about it! How thoroughly you know me, Lord! You even formed every bone in my body when you created me in the secret place; carefully, skilfully shaping me from nothing to something. You saw who you created me to be before I became me! Before I’d ever seen the light of day, the number of days you planned for me were already recorded in your book. Every single moment you are thinking of me.” (Psalm 139:13-18)
(PS No we didn’t find out whether we were expecting a boy or a girl – I like surprises!)